Miss you Darling...xxx
Struggling recently money-wise:(
All your money gone and I still can't find the right job - it's so difficult to find a good one, when being a single parent with no-one to help...So many "friends" dissapeared. Well, probably better they did - I hate fake-friends, hipocrits, back-stabbers, gossipers and simillar scum who pretend to be posh and nice... Luckily the real friends are still here for me and Matthew...Thanks God my mum is sending some money from abroad and thanks God I still have Matthew's baby/toddler stuff. If I manage to sell it - will be able to pay my bills this month...This week I was not able to use our car and take Matthew for his theatre classes, to beavers and karate, as couldn't afford to pay for my new tax disc:( Then, found few pounds in Matthew's piggy-bank - managed to buy him a bottle of milk and box of sausage rolls... OMG - never been so bad:( Never mind - I struggle but "most important" a "B-W" is enjoying "her" money. You exactly know my love who I mean...Hours and days of our conversations about it when you were here...
At least you are free from all the earthly crap love. I can't wait to join you one happy day. At present I must stay here to look after and love our son. He is such a treassure...As you know Darling - he can be a monkey at the time, but also such a bright button, loving and carying. Our little Munchkin...
I was just typing your name to open your memorial web Darling and "discovered" there is a singer from New Jersey (I think) with your name and surename:) When manage to stand on my legs financially again - may try to buy his disc:). Have heard few free pieces on his web - sound good:)
I love you so much Peter... When going to cemetery and reading the words on the stone - just feel like you were standing next to me and whispering those words to my ear, as you said them in the hospital... Then looking at the photo...
Always loving you...
Hanna