The pain and suffering is never smaller. The time does not make it easier to cope without you...the 3rd Christmas me and our son have to spend without your physical presence...Only Matthew's presence keeps me still alive, nothing else matters at all...So sorry I am not coming to cemetery as often as I used to do. It used to be a comfort to be there once a week. However recently it doesn't. We miss you every day Darling XXXXXXX Always yours Hanna and Matthew